The Heartache of Secondary Infertility
I Never Thought it Would Happen to Me
I’m expecting my period tomorrow. It will come. There’s no reason why it won’t. I’m tired of holding out hope that things will be different this time. They won’t be.
Two and a half years ago, I was excited about the prospect of having my 4th child. I had a new partner and we both decided we would like to have a child together. We still haven’t made that a reality and it isn’t from lack of trying.
I had no idea that I would still be waiting after so much time
I had gotten pregnant without even really trying 3 times before. I wouldn’t say my kids were accidents but none of them were actually planned. It had been so easy.
Of course I was younger then. Fertility decreases as you age and I’m pushing 40. Still, it’s not unheard of for women my age to fall pregnant without intervention.
My husband would be an amazing father
He is an amazing father to my 3 kids. I would love nothing more for him to experience fatherhood from the beginning.
Frankly, I’d like to experience it all from the beginning again as well — with someone who actually wants to do it. The father of my 3 never…
