I have no idea how to take a compliment. Well, I mean, I do know that I am supposed to say thank you and move on. I feel uncomfortable when people compliment me.
I have gotten better at taking a compliment but I never feel the person is being genuine. I can’t possibly see why someone would actually like me. I mean, I am pretty average. “Awesome” isn’t how I would describe myself.
This isn’t to have people argue with me and say, “No you are awesome!” Go ahead and say that all you like, I won’t believe you.
Self esteem has to come from within. I don’t know if I have low self esteem or if I am just more realistic about who I am. Not bad but nothing fantastic.
I know who I am and I know what I have to offer. Not that I think I am a horrible person. No, I don’t think that at all. I think I am a pretty good person all around.
As far as looks go, I really don’t care about that. If you think I look good, OK. If you think I am ugly, that’s OK too. That has no baring on my self esteem.
Your outside isn’t important. I know this. “It’s what’s inside that counts!” as the cliche saying goes.
My inside is pretty average. I am nothing special. I don’t have any great talents. I’ll never be famous for anything. I’m just here, blending into society.
“You’re an awesome mom!” Eh, but am I? Because I just take care of my kids the way you are supposed to. That’s nothing exceptional. I’m just a mom doing the best that I can. Is that awesome?
“You’re so funny!” Thanks, it’s the depression.
I think it might be that I don’t have low self esteem, I just see myself in a realistic manner. I know I am not a horrible person, I know I try my best, I know what I have to offer.
If it sounds negative when I talk about myself, is it me putting myself down or is it me just being honest with what I can manage?
I know what I have to offer people in this life. I know that I do some things well. I know that I have a good head on my shoulders. I am getting better about taking pride in the successes I have.
Just because I am realistic about myself, does that mean I actually have low self esteem? Is saying you are average a bad thing? I don’t think so. Lots of people are average. There’s nothing wrong with it.
Being average lets me blend in. I don’t like to stand out or be the life of the party. Forget being the star of the show. That sounds like a nightmare.
I’m fine with who I am. You don’t need to argue with me about it. You don’t need to try to tell me I am better than I think I am.
You might call it being hard on myself. I call it being realistic about what I have to offer to this world.